the hardest part about saying goodbye is having to do it again every single day.

everyday we face the same truth:
that life is fleeting
that our time here is short

and to honor the fallen, we must live our own lives well

I wrote like Lucas wrote, with inspiration
I ran like my life depended on it
and
I loved like there was no one else for me

i miss the places you'd take me
and the things we used to do
but i dont miss you my babylove

we'd laugh over sunrises on the westside
and dance on the sand
as we sit on the beach and make our wishes on starfish,
i tell myself to write your name somewhere safe

but i still wont miss you

1. im a daddy's girl :)

2. i'd rather be at a nice coffeehouse with my favourite friends than be out partying

3. once, after As, i partied 4 times a week for 3 weeks straight and then i refused to party anymore cos i got so sick of it

4. nothing beats ice cold beer on the beach (this does not explain why i am and will always be tofu white)

5. i miss hockey, everyday. especially when i get to check out louie's hot legs under her skirt and sometimes i miss fighting with her on the pitch too

6. i do not enjoy eating meat. (give me my greens everyday!) when i do have to eat chicken wings or ribs or whatever else, daddy or roseann always peels them for me

7. i prefer tv dinners and junk food to delicacies

8. my life long ambition is to become a soccer mom, meaning a chaotic household full of kids (i want at least five spoilt brats) and a rich husband

9. i prefer sunrises to sunsets

10. i can only sleep safe when the sun rises in the morning

11. i am asleep more than i am awake, most days

12. sometimes i get too tired to climb up the stairs so i fall asleep on the living room floor or couch, still dressed

13. i hate the aircon and my room is so breezy so i sleep in my pjs without the fan on

14. my nails are almost always red or purple

15. i was in blue for all 12 years of my school life (IJ GIRL 4LIFE)

16. i lose interest in things really quick. i can be telling a story about something and the next second, i will be talking about something else. i think my friends have trouble keeping up sometimes

17. i can be very difficult, grumpy and will whine alot, especially when im sleepy. (try waking me up! HAHA)

18. i will always <3 ONETREEHILL (R!) lucas and peyton 4LIFE (BENJYYYYY!)

19. i am a very impulsive shopper. i dont even wear half the clothes in my closet

20. im a sucker for boys in ralph lauren, with the collar up

21. i have more than 10 pairs of havianas all in different colours (see 19.)

22. i thrive in my own mess (jared actually thought my bedroom was a store :/)

23. i used to be hXclaire according to some old friends but i believe very strongly that im not anymore even though they try to convince me its something to be proud of :/

24. i dont ever wanna grow up. i wanna be fifteen forever (2004 was the best year of my life, so far)

25. i used to be braver (ghost hunting... sleeping when its dark...) i dont know what happened :(

xx

Mood: confused